A dash of crazy, a sprinkle of blunt and a heaping tablespoon of don’t give a shit.

So it’s now been almost a month of being at home w this family of three. For the most part, I miss people but I’m okay staying at home each day. For me I can handle a little less bullshit from the outside world. However for a 15 year old it’s hard. Harder then I think most people even understand. Even me! She’s an only child. Having an only child has its benefits, she will be the first to agree. But this is a different time for us all and being home trapped with out any physical interaction with her friends is hard.

It’s something that parents with other kids probably won’t understand. Not because they are incapable, but because kids with siblings aren’t alone. They might not like spending time around them but they aren’t actually alone. At least they have someone to fight with! We have never ever lived through something like this before, so it’s impossible to relate to something that none of us has ever had to do. Hopefully never will again.

We don’t know yet if this isolation will have lasting effects on our little singletons yet. Or for that matter the kids in general. Once this is over I’m sure they will have professionals weigh in. I’m not expert but I’m pretty sure it’s gonna mess up a few of them after this is all over. All we can do is wait and see

There has never been a time in my life where I had regretted only having one child…. until now. I feel like I punished her for our choice. It’s a pretty shitty feeling. I try to entertain her, hang out with her, and just spend time with her. Don’t get me wrong I’m pretty fucking awesome, but I’m a shitty substitute for one of her friends.

I think the worst part right now is the lack of control. If you ask me how long it takes to get over a cold, I can take a guess and get close. We have a pretty good guess on how long things take… normally. But how long does it take for a pandemic to let life resume? Anyone? Exactly. So when my teen looks at me and says how much longer before I can see my friends I feel like shit. I can’t tell her that. I can’t even google it. And seriously, I google everything :).

Meanwhile I see everyone’s post to stay the blazes home, as our premier so swiftly put it, and I get it, I really really do but, sometimes I just feel like saying shut up. I can’t take it anymore. I keep seeing these trolling assholes who judge everyone. It’s got so bad I seen a post of a single mom crying for some asshole yelling at her for having her kids at the grocery store. Wtf. Should she leave them at home alone? Maybe she should drop them off at your house? So just shut up already.

What I’ve learned the last month. 1. There’s a reason why they use solitary confinement in jail to punish people. 2. This whole thing is hardest on teens and kids in general. 3. Pandemics bring out the best and worst of humanity.

Until next time.

#thissucks

#staytheblazeshome